Down Bad

Chileeee in sickness and health I can’t help but to want a MAN or should I say a particular man if I’m being honest.

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It’s crazy because being sick helps you realize a lot of things when you are down bad. You realize who is there for you and who you want to be there for you. It got me wondering how sickness, crisis, pain etc always bring people together, but when you are well it seems that support isn’t as heightened. It’s not necessarily a bad thing, but I want to level the playing field. Now how to do that I’m still trying to figure it out. Chileeee in sickness and health I can’t help but to want a MAN or should I say a particular man if I’m being honest. I just want someone who can take care of me in the time I can’t take care of myself. I have support, but not physical, but honestly it will make me feel better to have someone in the next room covering me, helping me and supporting me through this process. Trying to heal alone is lonely and I’m realizing sometimes you may not want to do what your heart feels, but in desperate times you need to. It’s an up and down feeling not knowing what is going to be next, but putting the need before the ego is a battlefield. It’s always a what, when, where, why and how of how you can talk yourself out of something, but either way it’s a risk. Risks are scary because it requires me to let go of my pride as a woman, my fierce ego to be self sufficient and my guilt conscious that I need help in the first place. I’m learning that life is short, you will have to work through things and maybe it’s a good decision or maybe it is not, but always weigh out the options and don’t suppress the need. Even if it is not the outcome you expected, you did what was best in your interest. And again maybe it’s good or maybe it's bad, but you will get through it. Pray for me y’all 💕

Cadedra Burks

Down Bad

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